I was bugged the whole day because of remembering a dream I had a few months ago. The details were still clear, I think I had an unfinished post about it but I ended up deleting it sometime ago. Anyways, here it goes…

I was out late at night with a friend. He was accompanying me (helping me carry my big bags) I was about to go to the province. We rode a bus together and had no choice but to sit apart because those were the only seats available. He also left all my bags with me (and I’m thinking because I have more space near my seat than his’).

The next thing I knew, it was past midnight. The bus driver was telling me it was their last stop and so I had to pick my stuffs and go. I was looking for this friend… weirdly, even looking at all the seats even if the bus seemed already empty. The friend was no where to be found. The thoughts came - he didn’t even say goodbye, probably it was a plan to leave me that way. Of course I am afraid and really sad but I had to go down and carry all my belongings all by myself. I was in this sub-rural area having cemented road with lamp posts, vacant lots with shrubs on one side and a row of houses on the other side of the road. At this time, there are still kids playing outside. In real life, I am quite used to walking late at night at *my own place* and at my dream, I somehow felt safe, maybe because of the presence of light and the kids and because there is still street life. I am however lost and it was a bit late when I realized I can call on my significant people to ask for help.

Fck. I left my phone. And my laptop… at the bus. I was frantically-crazily cursing while trying to run after the bus. Kamusta. Again, it was too late for I’ve been walking for a few minutes already before the running incident.

I think something else happened after but I don’t remember it anymore.

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It was one of those dreams that make you feel really heavy upon waking up. That was how I felt before and I’m beginning to have the same feeling now. It’s just that, a part of that dream is similar to what’s happening at present.

I don’t know. I’m just one of those people who tries to interpret her dreams based on what’s currently happening in her life and what’s probable to happen in the future (yes, and I browse some sites to look for meanings or symbolisms).

I think I’m seeing this dream better than before. It all points to LOSS.

I lost a person.
I lost my laptop.
I lost contact with my significant others
And I got lost.

I have to agree that these, or “which these things stand for” are important to me. Probably, THESE are the things that I’m most afraid of losing.

Tiring. I’d like to think it over but I guess it won’t be of any use. It’s just a dream that my brain refuses to forget.

Tomorrow will be a lot lot better day.

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P.S Today was Brave Hearts Day. We got our last shot (hehe) and got a bag full of goodies. If kids would be having such wonderful stuffs (from the sponsors) after their shot, wala ng iiyak! [*note to self: blog the event sometime*]